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Subject:A post on bitterness
Time:10:21 pm
Tonight I went to dinner with my family. It was my grandmothers birthday. And it got me thinking about my life. I feel like I'm holding myself back because of bitterness. There are two things in my life that I am SO bitter about. One is a family issue, the other is an issue I'm not comfortable talking about with really anyone...some people have gotten parts of it but no one the whole thing. Anyway, both things make me bitter and unhappy and I realize I need to let them both go before I can really have a productive life. I just dont know how to let them go. The one no one really knows about I'm getting real close to letting go of and Dont really wanna talk about..the other. I dont know how to ever get over it. Its that my little brother got so LUCKY in his job. He got it because one of his female friends hoped to marry him, so she got him an excellent job with her family business. But they never got together, but still he is making so much money and just bought a house and is becomeing an ADULT. Everyone is talking about how great he has turned out...SEE I gotta stop, just so bitter. I Have got to let it go. He has a great job, he makes more than I could dream of. He offered to pay my medical bills last year, I said no and tried hard not to hate him for it. Because I've been busting my ass for 13 years working, and I've never had the success that he has in only a few years of work. Its terrible Karma to envy your siblings...I just hate feeling like a failure
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radklif_kh
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Time:2008-09-24 12:22 pm (UTC)
some ppl just get lucky. it doesn't do anyone any good to compare yourself to blind luck. i always try to not compare myself to anyone else. i just look inward, and measure my happiness by how i feel. that sort of happiness is best, because once you find it, it's nearly impossible to lose.
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